Real Improvement

Two and a half years ago I had the perfect storm in my life- got sick with mono, moved into a new house, two kids in preschool, a husband at a new job and overall just a lot of stress. My body couldn't fight off the mono. In the last couple of weeks things are coming together in the opposite sort of way…I listened to a sermon on Sunday, March 9 from my ugly brown recliner that has forever changed my life. It actually took me three times to get through it because I didm't want to hear what the pastor had to say at first. But, by the last time I heard God's voice, his invitation to surrender. The last two and a half years I have had to involuntarily surrender so much- how I spend my time, what I can eat, the fact that I am too weak to do my own laundry. But, I held on fiercely to what I could. In that sermon God asked me to trade that control in. He also asked me to trade some other things in but I won't get into all that here. Ever since that day almost two weeks ago I have experienced a freedom in my mind that I have not ever felt before. The ruminating negative thoughts are gone. It is like I have been let out of jail. In addition, I can tell the IV's are giving me more energy. I am still napping in the afternoon, but when I wake up I am ready to engage the kids for the rest of the day. The fatigue is not taking over my day. Unfortunately, the pain in my upper body is still very life altering. It hurts to carry my laptop, cook dinner etc. However, I am more confident than ever that healing is coming!